Ambiguity of Self, Performance, and Culture

Project Overview

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Introduction

Globalization has intensified contact between societies with different expectations around religion, sexuality, family, and gender. Migration, digital media, and the global reach of American culture do not simply replace one set of values with another; they create cultural dissonance. Individuals and communities may resist inherited expectations, reproduce them, or do both at once.

This essay describes that process through three related forms of ambiguity. Ambiguity of self refers to the internal dissonance of negotiating conflicting moral and cultural frameworks. Ambiguity of performance describes situations in which people resist prevailing norms in private while publicly performing compliance. Ambiguity of culture emerges when these individual negotiations begin to destabilize the norms of society itself. Together, these categories show cultural change not as a clean break with the past, but as an uneven process shaped by migration, intimacy, economics, media, and power.

Ambiguity of Self

Ambiguity of self is especially visible among young migrants and the children of immigrants. During formative years, they may absorb the moral expectations of the society around them while continuing to carry the values of their families and ancestral cultures. The result is not necessarily the replacement of one identity with another. Instead, the self becomes situational: one set of behaviors may feel appropriate around family or within a traditional Middle Eastern community, while another becomes possible among American or European peers.

This tension appears in Marcia Inhorn's "Islam, Sex, and Sin: IVF Ethnography as Muslim Men's Confessional." Inhorn recounts the experience of Ali, an Iraqi man who moved to the United States and entered a series of short sexual relationships that were more socially permissible in his new environment. Although American culture made these encounters possible, his Muslim beliefs continued to shape how he understood them. He interpreted his infertility as divine punishment for sexual behavior he considered deviant and experienced significant distress as he moved between incompatible moral landscapes.

Ali's story demonstrates that cultural adaptation does not erase earlier moral formations. A person can act according to one set of norms while judging those actions through another. The ambiguity lies in the unstable relationship between action, belief, and self-perception.

As an Arab American woman, I recognize this negotiation in my own life and in the lives of many Arab and Muslim friends. We repeatedly encounter the perceived divide between progressiveness and cultural identity. We may resist restrictions we find limiting while still feeling emotionally attached to the communities, values, and histories from which those restrictions emerge. The self is continually reconstructed through the effort to belong to both worlds without feeling fully contained by either.

Ambiguity of Performance

Ambiguity of performance occurs when dominant expectations remain powerful, but individuals privately act outside them. It is a form of covert resistance: people create room for personal agency while preserving the public appearance necessary to protect family relationships, social standing, marriage prospects, or physical safety. Unlike ambiguity of self, which centers internal dissonance, ambiguity of performance centers the gap between what a person does and what they must appear to do.

Sexuality and women's bodily autonomy provide some of the clearest examples. In Azal Ahmadi's "Recreating Virginity in Iran," women who undergo hymenoplasty resist virginity norms by engaging in premarital sex while restoring the physical sign through which purity is socially judged. Their actions do not openly overturn the norm. Instead, they expose its performative nature: cultural purity is maintained as an appearance even when individual desires and behaviors have changed.

Gul Ozyegin's "Virginal Facades" similarly examines women who pursue sexual freedom while carrying guilt associated with traditional expectations. Their choices suggest that attitudes are changing among younger people, yet the broader social power of virginity remains. Because the surrounding culture has not transformed at the same pace, women must continue to perform compliance even as they live differently.

Performance is not limited to sexuality. Quintan Wiktorowicz and Suha Taji Farouki describe Islamic nongovernmental organizations in Jordan that help finance weddings. By assuming expenses couples cannot afford, these organizations allow families to preserve marriage traditions and publicly perform a level of financial stability that changing economic conditions have made difficult to sustain.

Iris Kolman's study of cohabitation in Tunis offers another example. Some women live with partners while continuing to maintain separate rooms or addresses for the sake of their families. One interlocutor, Noor, continues paying rent for a room despite sharing an apartment with her boyfriend. As Kolman explains, some women want to challenge dominant structures around sexuality and marriage, but not at the cost of their relationships with their parents.

These examples reveal performance as more than hypocrisy or deception. It is a strategy for navigating unequal consequences. The ability to openly reject a norm is not distributed equally, and resistance may need to remain hidden when exposure threatens safety, financial security, or family ties. Yet when enough people preserve a tradition only as appearance rather than conviction, the culture itself begins to change.

Ambiguity of Culture

Ambiguity of culture emerges when expectations are no longer merely being challenged by isolated individuals but are changing at the level of institutions, relationships, and everyday life. The central question is no longer whether a person privately accepts or rejects a norm, but whether the norm itself still has a stable meaning.

Marriage and women's roles are especially important sites of this transformation. Economic pressure, women's employment, migration, and new forms of communication have altered what is materially possible, creating social arrangements that older cultural categories cannot fully explain.

Masserat Amir-Ebrahimi documents changing gender relationships in Iran, where women increasingly work outside the home, live independently before marriage, and develop relationships with their fathers that are less explicitly organized around control. These shifts challenge the assumption that a woman must move directly from the authority of her father to that of her husband. Independence becomes visible not simply as individual rebellion but as a new social possibility.

In "Beyond the Sharia," Gholamreza Vatandoust and Maryam Sheipari discuss couples who cohabit without formally marrying. One woman, Mariam, lives with her long-term boyfriend but conceals the arrangement from her family. Her case contains an element of performance, yet it also reflects ambiguity of culture because the conditions making "white marriage" possible have already taken shape around her. The relationship remains controversial, but it is socially recognizable.

Economic instability also produces new forms of marriage. Shereen El Feki discusses temporary marriages as responses to financial barriers, reducing some of the costs and obligations associated with conventional marriage while allowing couples to avoid the religious prohibition of zina. Janet Afary and Roger Friedland similarly describe newer forms of 'urfi marriage that may lack state recognition while receiving increasing religious or social legitimacy. Their uncertain status reflects a wider uncertainty about what marriage is becoming.

Digital media further accelerates this process. Vahideh Golzard and Cristina Miguel examine how women use online platforms to seek spouses, pursue intellectual interests, and exercise forms of agency previously restricted by physical and social boundaries. These spaces expose young people to values and possibilities beyond their immediate communities, making cultural isolation increasingly difficult to maintain.

Dina Zbeidy's work on marriage registration among Palestinians and Syrians in Jordan demonstrates another tension between inherited practices and modern realities. Early marriage may follow longstanding expectations, yet increased access to divorce and changing attitudes toward relationships make these unions less permanent than they once appeared. Attempts to preserve the past can therefore produce outcomes the traditional system was not designed to accommodate, while moving too openly toward new relationship forms can still result in exclusion. The acceptable norm is no longer clear because it is actively being renegotiated.

Conclusion

Ambiguity of self, performance, and culture are distinct but interdependent. Ambiguity of self describes the internal negotiation of competing identities and moral systems. Ambiguity of performance describes the strategic gap between private action and public compliance. Ambiguity of culture describes the broader transformation that occurs when these negotiations become widespread enough to destabilize shared expectations.

The movement between these categories is not linear. A person may experience all three at once, and cultural change may advance in one area while remaining rigid in another. Nevertheless, performance often becomes a bridge between private dissonance and public transformation. As more people preserve traditions only through appearance, the gap between the official norm and lived reality becomes increasingly difficult to ignore.

Colonialism, migration, economic change, and global media have had lasting effects on the cultural landscape of the Middle East and its diasporas. Yet these forces are not passively absorbed. They are negotiated by individuals making choices within unequal systems of family, religion, gender, and power. Ambiguity is therefore not simply confusion or cultural loss. It is the space in which people manage contradiction, protect belonging, exercise agency, and gradually create new cultural possibilities.

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